Its never too late to come back to blogging :)

Its been a while I am away from the blog. I guess, unless you are into something which you regularly intent to write, it’s kinda a hard to keep blogging/writing.

Last few months have been really hectic. Some of my dreams came true!! I moved to New York!! I got a job I like, my hubby (FINALLY!) moved to NY with me too, so no more long distance relationship.  New job, new place, new friends….very much loving it! And all these absorbs me so much that sometimes I just don’t get time for myself.

When I first moved, finding an apartment in NY (a livable one!!!!) was one of the most difficult  job I have ever had to do, and then setting up the furniture was another pain in the neck. New job was very hectic too when I joined.  I cant imagine how last 5 months went….its like just yesterday I moved here! It was hell lot of pressure..stress!

Now things  kind of getting easier with time. All my colleagues are wonderful at work and am learning so much!!! Not only things related to work, am learning about new culture, new foods…I feel blessed to get the chance to experience all these diversity which would have been really hard in any other place other than NY 🙂

Also, now that hubby is with me, I don’t have to wait for someone to plan some thing 🙂 So many things are here to enjoy…Broadway Shows, Clubs, Music, Parties, Cruising…and so many more! We just decide and go!!

With time, the more I am settling down, I feel I have made one of the best decisions in my life to move to NY. Now all I need is focus to reach my life’s goals. Everything else is set for me now, I reached a point of my life that now, I need focus for the things I have always wanted to be able to do. I hope I can, I have to and I will!!!

Til the next post, adios from me 🙂

Did I Give My Best Shots?

Is it hard to achieve something? Or its easier compare to the effort you have to give to keep it after achieving! There are things I regret very much which I easily achieved but was not able to keep it. I am not very proud of everything I did with my life. But when I look back to my past, and sometimes regret for not doing the things I should have done I realize that, this is how you grow. You can’t expect to be perfect. Life gives you chances, you make mistakes, loose the chance, and learn from it, and you get the chance again and you keep loosing unless you get the real lesson to implement the right decision during the practical moment!

The older I am getting the more I am realizing these subtle detail notions of life. I used to think, I am quite intelligent and I know a lot, but trust me, unless you really go through the practical challenges you face, you can barely know how it works! Its like you know the theory that you should be calm before you go to a speech or a presentation, and there are many ways to make yourself strong enough to face it, but when it is the time, you are infront of bunch of people, standing to give the best shot, all theories are gone, and you face the hard truth….the practical part isn’t that straight forward 🙂

With time, you will notice that half of the thing you cried over last few years, never meant anything to anyone, not even to you.  There are things I never noticed but now I do, and I realize how important they were, how valuable they were to me, and to my family and friends.

Sometimes I feel, if I could just start over, and then smile, I might make it even worse if I were to start again. Its better this way, I grow through practical lesson, through understanding myself and my surroundings more. And I hope and wish to grow more. I want to reach a point where I can look back and smile and say to myself that: I tried my best, I gave my best shots and can die in peace 🙂

Updates – But Nothing To Update :)

Just thought to write some updates about whats going on even though there is no updates 😛 & nothing new is happening in life!!!

First of all, no luck about job search yet except for few interviews here and there. After around two years am giving interviews and finding it pretty interesting. I know it won’t be that interesting once I start getting rejections 😀 Well, I am kinda trying to convince myself by taking these interviews as mock interview to prepare myself for the real ones. LOL!! I know its lame but this thought is keeping me strong and well managed, moreover I try to learn from the interviews, my mistakes and prepare better for next time. Now, If i take these interviews seriously I would definitely end up screwing future chances by being upset for silly mistakes and rejections!!!( These are nothing but impact of too much self-development readings 😛 )

Other than this one interview thing everything else is as it is. Pretty much same old story. Living in a room whole day, applying for jobs, time to time preparing and giving interviews –  quite boring life 😦 Interstingly though, this boredom has not eaten my brain yet and I am still able to handle it nicely like a strong good girl 🙂

Even though the weather here is getting cold, everytime I talk to my  friend in NY, I find how blessed I am living here as its too cold there and I usually used to get sick at this time of year while I was in NY. Thank God, because of the blessing of California weather I am doing pretty good health wise so far!!

However, I am visiting NY for the long weekend and am really worried about the cold part!!! When I bought the ticket I was so excited that I could not wait, and now after checking the temparature I am getting scared!!!! Anyway, whether cold of warm, NY is NY, and I know I will still like it 🙂

Till I have this wonderful vacation, I should better preapre myself even more for the mock ( 😉 ) interviews !!!!

California :)

Last few months I have been hearing this song, a song full of life and energy and I added it to my youtube favorites (Here is the You Tube Link)

If you’re going to San Francisco
Be sure to wear some flowers in your hair
If you’re goin’ to San Francisco ………………..

Well, guess what?? I had no idea whatsoever that this song will become a truth for me so soon 😀 Is it called destiny?? Anyway, I came to California (San Fransisco) yesterday to look for jobs. I am staying with my Grad School Indian friends, amazing people, made things very easy and simple for me, I very much feeling like at home here.

The weather here is amazing and right now I am living in the heart of Silicon Valley. Every step I take here I see one company! I went to watch a movie and when I looked around there was Yahoo, McCafe, Cisco and hundred others 🙂 I am really excited seeing so many companies together in one shot!!!!!

Given current economic condition the job search is going to be pretty hard for me, but somewhere I have to start and I think the best place to start looking for is California!!

And so here begins my (another) new journey in USA…

Century Post !!

Yup!!! This is my 100th post. I have started this blog on January 2nd, 2008. its been almost a year, exactly speaking, 10 months 2 days, and here I am posting my 100th Post. If I could continue with the flow I started this blog, I would have reached 150+ by now, but however, I happy that I still am continuing 🙂

Even though the frequency is less, and am not at all impressed with the topics I am writing these days 😦 but I am trying my best to keep in touch with my blog!!

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When we create a blog, most likely we have a aim, aim to write about our day-to-day stuff and watch the improvements, or speak out our thoughts and feel comfortable or share our view with many others in this web platform! When I started this blog, my aim was to see how my thought develop with time, the way I write in January 2008 must be different and improved than the way I write in January 2009. With this process of expressing my thoughts…sharing many interesting news I find online my aim was also to be part of the internet blog world, where my existence will somehow give my reader inspiration, knowledge or to some extent some happiness. I tried to stick to my intention but at times I failed. I was sad, depressed, unable to handle certain pressure….but I tried to recover. So when I went through my posts what I noticed interesting is the ups and downs of my regular life. There were moments when I was helpless and very upset and there were times I wasfighting back to recover and there were times I really enjoyed this amazing and beautiful life.

This is a wonderful feedback and lesson I got from my own past posts… no matter what things will work fine, you will fall down and you’ll stand again. Beautiful days are always with you…all you have to do is seek for and  stick to the believe that its there 🙂 and I learned those in this process of blogging!!

Apart from this wonderful feedback for myself, another wonderful thing this blog has given me the comments I have received from its readers. Compared to the frequency I wrote the input and suggestion and wonderful comments from many wonderful people around is really impressive!! I felt very grateful for all those reader who read my blog patiently and left their comments. Its a wonderful way of connecting with many people whom I would have never known or get in touch with in any other way possibly. Thanks to them!!

I know there are many things I need to improve, I need to concentrate on the topics I want to write about and I should be improving my frequency of posts and off course my writing styles. But I don’t want to talk about negative things in this 100th post.

I am feeling very good about this blog and my posts so far and I wish to improve even more on coming days!!!

Everything Ok Lipna??

Its Saturday lazy morning, with lots of sunlight outside and some wonderful musics playing in my laptop. Last week has been the most hectic week of the year at work!! And I am supposed to be very RELAXED now at this very moment. But for some reason I get this empty feeling!! Blank head….empty heart…feeling less mood!!

Am I tired?? Bored?? Frustrated?? Depressed?? Everything OK with me??? Is something missing?? Is somehting wrong???

Why don’t I go to all those events I used to love to attend in NY?? Why don’t I attend all those get together at friend’s place?? Have I lost the charm?? I still miss everything I used to do, and I still love those. I love myself for being social, being happy, lively!!! But why suddenly I have started taking the other route! Why don’t I come here in my blog and keep talking about my thoughts, what I read, stumble, my believes…my good time  and my bad time stories…..why have I become a creature with no vision ahead?? Why have I become the Lipna I never envisioned?? Is this the place where you  stop, when you reach a certain stage of your dream?? Is this what happen when you don’t know what to look forward to anymore??

This lazy relaxed saturday morning making me poder about these. I just want to ask Lipna ‘Is everything OK??’. I hope and pray she feels better and get back to her track sooner than later!!!

My Website Died :(

I bought a new hosting site and transferred my blog there (lipna.ghashforing.com) and then when I upgraded the hosting opition somethign happened and all my blogs got deleted 😦

I felt terrible !!! I kept on contacting those admin guys and they never came back, and finally they informend this can not be revert back!! What a shit!!!

Anyway, am back to my wordpress now 😦 No more lipna.ghashforing.com 😦

Hope to get back to blogging!

Plan But No Action :(

I have been planning to do certain things when I am comparatively stable with my life. I can say I am quite stable now. I have a job, a place where I can live, some good friends and comparatively good health 🙂

If this is not a good time to start working on things I have always wanted and planned to do then when it will be?? The planning dream has reached a stage that sometimes I feel I have lost track of many things I wanted to do! And now when I sit at home, find some spare time to do somehting creative I go blank!! All my plannings has been so scattered that none of them now take shape when its time to take some action on them!!

When your life is settled and you have less (or almost none) things to worry about, all you end up doing is time passing in your spare time. Utilizing time properly becomes an issue and you are too lazy to act proactively and makes things get done!! The more relax you are the more lazy you become! And I have been proving this one lesson of life to myslef by being 100% lazy these days! Can you imagine, I have almost stopped blogging for no reason. When I was in trouble and was fed up with my visa issues I used to be more active then now I am 😦

Now, I just look at myself and ask: “Lipna, are you condidering starting over, focusing on leftover works? Please??”

Hope Lipna answer back something good to me this time 🙂

 

My Domain Name!!

Finding a domain name with your name is quite difficult. For a long time I have been trying to get www.lipna.com but unfortunately it was taken by someone 😦

Anyway, yesterday when I logged into wordpress dashboard I found a notice saying “Buy lipna.com for $15′. I was very surprised, as I knew its not available. Anyway, finally I bough it from Godaddy !!

I am so happyyyyy now!! Lipna domain is MINE now 😀

Oh yaa, Thanks to WordPress !!

Back Again!!

Looks like when life is either too frustrated or too relaxed I tend to NOT write here 😛

This is very bad!! When you create a blog and you decide to write as regularly as possible, not  sticking to your words is something you want to avoid. You want to be focused and do your task as you are supposed to do! And yes, that also explains why I am not hardworking and organized!!

Well, it may seem that I am always looing at my bad sides and am being annoying with what I do and I should do and so on, but someone once told me that ‘As long as you are unhappy with your attitudes and performance, you are good, cause you tend work on improving yourself and strive to be a better human being’ . So I never stop criticizing myself !

Sometimes it seems I am being negative with almost everythign about myself, but that helps. I can look into what I lack and work on that. Trust me there are certain attitudes/features (of mine) that I have been trying to change for last 10 years(!!!) and nothign happend yet and to my surprise I am still trying…may be I have improved to some extent…yet I feel another 60%-70% to go….

There is one thing I always love about myself:  ‘I never give up’ :NEVER!!! Which sometimes turns bad…there are THINGS I should stop trying to get as I may never get those but as per my behavior I don’t stop 😛 lol!!

Am not sure what I am trying to explain here!! Does this post make any sense?? I doubt though 😛

Anyway, at least I wrote somethign!!

Living with yourself!

The person you live with your whole life is none but you! Now if that person irriatates you, if that person deteriorate your future success…if that person actions make you feel embarrased….if that person is not happy…if that person is sad…if that person is depressed – think about the impact on your life!!!!

I know it sounds naive but there is a deep thought (or I should say philosophy) behind it! If we could think this way can we improve ourself more efficiently, can we work on our problems ..limitations more actively then we usually do?? Will we understand the importance of our acts and steps towards life?? Will we be able to relate ourselves with our success accordance to our actions?? Will it become more visible?? Will we notice things which we generally tend to ignore???

My thought is if we realize the most important person in our life who controls almost everythign in and about our life is we – ourseleves then I am sure we will emphasize more on improving ourselves. If we come out of the box we live in….the ME I’m in and try to look at our own activities as a n outsider we realize how wrong we are at certain things..how terribly we think and how terribly we act….at particular issues…

I guess we should come out and know the REAL ME and then take some actions….let that ME know that ‘here are your problems…these are the things you lack…and this is what you should do to carry on for better future’  ….I am sure that will be a great way of doing self-improvement!

The most important person you live with (yourself) must know how important is to take care of yourslef by taking some good actions !!!

 

Lessons!!

I found some nice statements by some anonymous about life through online stumbling. here are they:

1. It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

2. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want in life.

3. It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it, but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives.

4. The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves and not to twist them with our own image, otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

5. The happiest people don’t necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along the way.

6.The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You can’t go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

A Poem~

I am in the mood of reading poems today…its friday…weekend is here ..so … a soothing happy mood 🙂

There is one poem I would like to post here: It’s the Journey that’s Important by John McLeod

Life, sometimes so wearying
Is worth its weight in gold
The experience of traveling
Lends a wisdom that is old
Beyond our ‘living memory’
A softly spoken prayer:
“It’s the journey that’s important,
Not the getting there!”

Ins and outs and ups and downs
Life’s road meanders aimlessly?
Or so it seems, but somehow
Leads us where we need to be,
And being simply human
We oft question and compare….
“Is the journey so important
Or the getting there?”

And thus it’s always been
That question pondered down the ages
By simple men with simple ways
To wise and ancient sages….
How sweet then, quietly knowing
Reaching destination fair:
“It’s the journey that’s important,
Not the getting there!”

When Future On The Hand Of Lottery!!!

Yes!! Its really SAD when your future depends on a lottery 😦

I came all the way to America from other side of the world Bangladesh to establish myself…my career… I finished my Masters nicely and got a nice job. Now to continue my work here, to build my career and improve my skills I need to have job visa!! Last year when my company applied for my job visa, there was huge amount of application and the US Immigration Services wonderfully selected the 65000 employee out of 150000 through a lottery system!!  Unfortunately I was not selected 😦  Becasue I did not finish my Masters before they apply for my job visa on Bachelor’s quota. There was no lottery on MS quota last year. Till now I am here in my student visa which will end soon.

This year my company again is applying for my job visa in Master’s quota and I was happily passing my days thinking I will definitely get selected this time. But the sad news is I came to know from my lawyer that this year it is highly ilkely that a lottery will take place for both Masters and Bachelor’s.

I have been always a lucky girl thorough out my life except for that lottery thing. I have never ever had any lottery fortune. And I don’t see any chance this time as well 😦

Well….that my story for now…an uncertain future completely in the hand of God (lottery!!)!

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