Facebook – How It Impacts Me

I have been thinking about my perspective on usage of Facebook. I have had mixed feeling of how I feel, sometimes I was over excited, sometimes over emotional, sometimes angry but recently I also noticed its changing my thought process, the way I see life, my expectations are changing, my future plans are changing even my personality type is impacted by FB.

The part that bugs me most is confusion! Each of my friends and families live in a certain way, and each of them express their feelings, preferences, the way they live their life through pictures, statuses in their own way – sometimes off course the sole purpose is showing the world 😛

Sometimes it really confuses me (personally), cause sometimes an expression by someone looks so alluring that even if my personality will never would agree on such things, I lean towards those ideas! Seeing people living in a certain way sometimes makes me feel ‘Am I living the right way? Should I be doing that or this?’ I want and try my best to be an observer on FB and try to be less interactive, I do not want to be influenced by something which probably has no value in my personal practical life, I do not want to change my priorities just because some one said something cool and I think I should do the same leaving everything else.

I am a human being and not perfect at all, everyday I give my best shots to improve myself in the things I believe I should be better, but last few months I have noticed, I am losing my track, and the more I was confused the more I realized a big catalyst has been FB! I got drifted apart in so many ways from my original thoughts and plans to some random ones just because in the social world of FB it looked cooler/facinating 🙂

It may all sound very weird and confusing to some readers, but if anyone is in the same place as me, will understand what I am trying to express. Everybody is different, so I do not expect anyone to agree with me, these are purely my personal thoughts and how I am disturbed by the presence of FB. Nonetheless, I must agree, there are things I do love about FB, and that is why I do not want to just deactivate and disappear! Rather, I feel from now on I should try even more harder to be an observer and be strong at what I stand for in my personal/professional life. I can grab the ideas/concepts by others I really admire and that matches my personality but I surely have to be careful with my usage of Facebook for my own benefit 🙂

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Welness Retreat II – A Changed Lipna!

The three days(Sept 3 – Sept 6) at Birchcreek Retreat Center has been a whole different experience of my life! Three days living on juice only!!

A typical day there was like:

• Wake up around 8.30 PM
• Have a Berley shot
• Walk for 1.5 hours in the beautiful jungle and lakes
• Have a juice for breakfast
• Around 11 either do workouts or yoga depending on the treat you chose.
• Around 12.30 lunch, smoothie
• Around 2PM, again either do workouts or yoga depending on the treat you
• Break between 3-4ish.
• Around 4/4.30 again either do workouts or yoga depending on the treat you
• Then 6PM, dinner, juice again
• Whole day drink water!

We (all the guests) used to talk and hang out after the walk or lunch or dinner. We used to talk about how our life came to a stage where we can’t take it anymore and committed to make a change, we finally want to take care of ourselves, improve ourselves. All of these weer very helpful for me, talking constructive and being productive!

I loved the kick boxing we did for the work out training, also loved the yoga where she taught me different yoga practices, poses and was more focused on my relaxation, which I needed most 🙂

It was only 3 days for me, losing only 4lb, not at all visible, but I feel something has changed inside me, I feel more stronger and more controlled. I am not sure if it is temporary or what, but so far it feels so good, I feel so much energized than before, I feel so active and strong. 3 days isn’t a big time to make all these changes, but something inside me is strongly hit and changed a big part of me in a good way. This time I feel I am not going to lose myself, and damn it feels good to be back to the person I always wanted to be 🙂

Welness Retreat I – Escape!

Written on: September 03, 2012 – First Day on Birchcreek Retreat Center

I have been thinking about this for a while and then in a spike of an emotional moment I ended up reserving this place at Birchcreek Retreat Center for three days – to escape, to think and to explore myself! I am sure three days can’t change my life, but I just needed to do it! I have been telling about it almost every single day for last few years!

So, in the spark of a moment, I booked the ticket at midnight(Sept 2nd) for the next day without any confirmation! Next day woke up and called the center to confirm the reservation! Then went to Port Authority to get to the bus to Pine Hills! I was supposed to be on an Eid event of a friends, hanging out eating good foods with good friends, instead I was in the bus on my way to a place I have no clue of, hoping to surprise myself!

Well, the four hour ride has been really good! Even though it was cloudy the whole day, yet I didn’t get tired of the scenic view of upstate.

Finally I reached pine hill, a small suburb if Ulster. A staff member of the retreat was there to pick me up.  When I reached there, I didn’t see anybody. After official check ins, she showed me around the place and then I got into my room, its a sweet small lovely room on 3rd floor, i could see the jungles and the water flow in the creek from the windows, exactly the kind of place I am looking for 🙂 far far away from the city, from everyone, unreachable …I am in a peaceful place! It is so silent there that my ear would start hearing a ‘zzzzzzzzzzz’ sound!

So far loving it, only thing is it doesn’t feel like it should be that expensive, but anyway, let’s see how it goes. I finally have what I wanted, at least now I will not be complaining about it anymore!